immense peace

Immense peace.

Ok so im the laziest blogger and I thought when I started I’d get like 3000 views a day. Yeah right!

First of all, the child that was supposedly Jims, wasent his! I met her and I wondered how she could be his daughter there was no resemblance whatsoever so being my stubborn self I insisted on a DNA test and what do you know – negative! So he had been supporting a child that was not his for almost ten years and now had to find a way to tear himself away from the issue without traumatizing her or not doing what God would expect of him.

Either way a lot of damage had been done.

Anyway, so I have been in ministry school for two years, not even thinking about it, when finally a few days before my graduation I see my friend pea’s blog! asking if women should be pastors. I thought, this is one of two things. Either the devil is trying to get me to disobey God, or God is warning me so I don’t disobey him. so I asked Jim about it and he reminded me of the time we had talked before I joined the school of ministry and how he said his spirit just didn’t feel right, and how I insisted on my way and he finally relented and said it was alright I could do it. so we decided to go through the Bible and I tell you it has been three days and three nights of no sleep, no food, no nothing just because we don’t want to do the wrong thing.

This morning as the sun began to rise Jim left our study for a while. He came back with some breakfast about half an hour later and he set it before me. I am cranky when am hungry and sleepy so to be both at the same time wouldnt be good. he told me to eat and get some sleep and I did, and when I woke up about four hours ago he cooked for me again, I found out he had taken the day off work just to talk to me, and he said, “Sweetie, you have been faced with the Bible. That is the final authority. Nomatter what every other person says, you will not be judged for what pastor so and so said, you will be judged by how you lived what JESUS said. And Jesus is the Word, you cant love Him and hate His word. so as far as im concerned, its pretty obvious you should forget this pastor thing – and I was wrong for not searching the scriptures earlier. But if you refuse to do whats right you will not have my support in sin.”

What? it was so scary. But we prayed and prayed and at the same time we opened our eyes and looked at each other and said “obedience is better than sacrifice” and we realized it was the right thing to do.

I have so much peace, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so much peace, ive tried to talk to my friends about it but they are so hostile its impossible to even get them to read their bibles.

Thank God I found out in time!!!!!